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Are you here out of desire or comfort? Is this what you want or what you know? Perhaps I am just a replacement The Interim since you can't be alone

"I just want to make you happy" That's what he said "You do make me happy" Is what she insisted Realizing her responses were automatic replies Quick-to-say sentences with reflections still on her mind She was convinced happiness was doing nothing at all That any act on this holiday was one to appall Perhaps she's mistaken happiness for complacency this whole time Perhaps allowing room for enjoyment isn't so much of a crime Perhaps this is the year to redefine what it all means Perhaps he could be the one to help repaint that scene "Let him show you affection" "Why not give it a chance?" Is it really so hard to accept one's romance?

Skin never did make for the best of armors But baby by the way you wear yours I would swear you were of Terracotta origin

What do you want? Moronic excuse of a fool What are you doing? Tearing yourself into two You bring this upon yourself You're the one they should dread So lie and decay In a grave as your bed

People are always just trying to be It's something my mind has already seen Cringeworthy sentences temporarily blinding I act only in desperation to ensure you keep fighting

Am I just looking for things? Or is it that the things that I am seeing are righteously warranting my feelings? Tell me what I should be believing when lips and eyes are disagreeing Because everything you've said sounds so sweet Words like honey but your eyes tell me that something here is funny You hear it best in the four second pause that you take just after mentioning her name Tell me how I am suppose to act when I am now forced to sit back while you regale in a once distant moment? When did I become so jaded? So unbelieving and untrusting of love that I decided I wanted nothing more to do with it Now it creeps up again Lately I n

Lately I have been resisting the urge to tell you that I was wrong That maybe I do want the same things That maybe I'm ready to try my hand at this and you could be just enough to get me there That you were right when you say things develop over time with trust and experience I have been resisting the urge to tell you that I just may be willing to confide in you; Seeing as you've already gotten yourself this far with ease But maybe that's not such a good thing? Today Pride takes to the front of the line and I'd still thank this sin daily for keeping the rest at bay You see, I promised I would never again beg Never let my vulnerabil

Abhorred by every lewd act you have strewn I can't help but to cringe when you enter the room The falsest of smiles could never truly hide The shit-flecks of colour beneath dark empty eyes Perhaps your veracity may have once thrived Regard! Now you're tainted with all you've contrived How I'd once emote envy, I will never comprehend Still you slithered around and dragged me down to be Damned Though no longer beside me, Your words still resound in my head I can do nothing more than to imagine I'm elsewhere Existing instead

Memories flood back to me Flashbacks of what had already been Spine bends outward Anxious cringe Dont be the coward hosting denial within I may do things that put me close to the edge But no one can ever say that "she never lived"

I was designed to live fully To take leaps and dive in head-first Submerge myself in the darkest of depths So that I may know of Death Of course I am afraid Although paralyzing, Fear remains the appropriate response As she approaches me with pestilent wings My vision turns to tunneling But I will not yet succumb to her amaurotic powers For we both know that my time here has yet to expire So I wipe the sleep out from my eyes Refocus my sight Adjusted to light Now I may see what it is that surrounds me Now I may see that I am still standing That the dark days have yet to consume Understanding That the closer that terror gets The harder my